Asa, I'm your Father Asa.

OK, so this is the father post. I haven't ever made a post but i couldn't pass up the opportunity to tell everyone how I feel.
So I just wrote half the story of Annie's labor experience & what happened but I erased it. I'll let Annie tell you all how she felt and what happened. And I'll tell about my experience which I'm sure was much different than Annie's.
Annie called while I was at work and told me that she was going to see the doctor, she hadn't been feeling well the past couple of days & thought that maybe her water had broken. I didn't have much hope that anything was going to happen, she hasn't been feeling well the last 9 months, why would this time mean she was going into labor. It didn't, but she had high blood pressure for the first time throughout her pregnancy & the doctor was worried that she had preeclampsia. Don't worry I don't know what that is either, but it has something to so with high blood pressure & can cause seizures during and after labor. When I got the call that Annie was going to be induced I was just getting off the hospital exit. I know that this is something we've been expecting for a while but that didn't stop my heart from jumping. I have the tendency to run through every worse case scenario in my mind before things happen. I won't give you an example because I think it's a little morbid, but that's what I was in the process of doing when I got the hospital.
We called my brother Nathaniel to bring us a few things from home & when he got to the hospital he helped me give annie a blessing, but my nerves didn't calm until Annie got the epidural & I could see that she was feeling better.
I wasn't planning on watching the birthing process but when the nurse had Annie start to push she told me to grab a leg, After that I had a leg until Asa came out. And WOW! Women, and Annie specifically are amazing! I'm so glad I don't have to do that.
When Asa came out I didn't cry, Maybe I'm just insensitive. Sometimes I feel bad when I think I should cry at things & I don't, like maybe i'm not spiritual enough, oh well. At the time I'll I wanted to do was make sure that my new baby boy was going to be okay, he was fine and is still doing great. Although he was ridiculously gross, disgusting and funny looking when he came out, he keeps getting cuter each day. I keep trying to see something of me in him but his most prominent feature are his china eyes, just like his mom, he's beautiful.
I did cry the next day. Saturday morning I went home to shower and then went to get a gift for Annie and my new little boy. I love them both so much, I can't believe the love I already feel for Asa & for some reason buying him a little gift triggered something inside that helped me feel that love, I felt a little like the Grinch when his heart grew so big on that one day and you could see in his eyes the change that had come over him. That's how I feel, I'm different now, my heart is bigger and I can feel more love.
Asa is so wonderful. He has this little high pitched cry that makes you want to do anything for him, & another cry that makes you want to make him to be quiet. I love when he's awake and just looks around at everything, I don't think he can even see much yet but he still seems so interested in everything around him. I'm so excited to be a dad, and want to do everything so that our family can be together forever.
Thank you everyone for all the love and support that you give to us. We hope and pray that everything is going well in your lives.